Monday 9 January 2012

a belated christmas post

I sat reading this book and I was totally intrigued by it. I had never heard this story told in that was before. I could say I was awed at the way this author had made the birth of Jesus as lowly as it was meant to be, it amazed me the way he brought down the walls that we had built our faith on and showed us the logic in the absurdity of what God did by sending down His Son to a people who constantly brought Him down in their actions instead of lifting Him up. I can’t with other words explain what this author wrote so I’m just going to copy it so you can see. I hope you feel the excitement I felt while reading these lines.
 THE ARRIVAL
The noise and the bustle began earlier than usual in the village. As night gave way to dawn, people were already on the streets. Vendors were positioning themselves on the corners of the most heavily traveled avenues. Store owners were unlocking the doors to their shops. Children were awakened by the excited barking of the street dogs and the complaints of donkeys pulling carts.
The owner of the inn had awakened earlier than most in the town. After all, the inn was full, all the beds taken. Every available mat or blanket had been put to use. Soon all the customers would be stirring and there would be a lot of work to do.
One’s imagination is kindled thinking about the conversation of the innkeeper and his family at the breakfast table. Did anyone mention the arrival of the young couple the night before? Perhaps. Perhaps someone raised the subject. But, at best, it was raised, not discussed. There was nothing that novel about them. They were, possibly, one of several families turned away that night.
Besides, who had time to talk about them when there was so much excitement in the air? Augustus did the economy of Bethlehem a favor when he decreed that a census should be taken. Who could remember when such commerce had hit the village?
No, it’s doubtful that anyone mentioned the couple’s arrival or wondered about the condition of the girl. They were too busy. The day was upon them. The day’s bread had to be made. The morning’s chores had to be done. There was too much to do to imagine that the impossible had occurred.
God had entered the world as a baby.
Yet, were someone to chance upon the sheep stable on the outskirts of Bethlehem that morning, what a peculiar scene they would behold.
The stable stinks like all stables do. The stench of urine, dung and sheep reeks pungently in the air. The ground is hard, the hay scarce. Cobwebs cling to the ceiling and a mouse scurries across the dirt floor.
A more lowly place of birth could not exist.
Off to one side sit a group of shepherds.  They sit silently on the floor, perhaps perplexed, perhaps in awe, no doubt in amazement. Their night watch had been interrupted by an explosion of light from heaven and a symphony of angels. God goes to those who have time to hear him – so on this cloudless night he went to simple shepherds.
Near the young mother sits the weary father. If anyone is dozing, he is. He can’t remember the last time he sat down. And now that the excitement has subsided a bit, now that Mary and the baby are comfortable, he leans against the wall of the stable and feels his eyes grow heavy. He still hasn’t figured it all out. The mystery of the event puzzles him. But he hasn’t the energy to wrestle with the questions. What’s important is that the baby is fine and that Mary is safe. As sleep comes he remembers the name the angel told him to use…… Jesus. “We will call him Jesus.”
Wide awake is Mary. My, how young she looks! Her head rests on the soft leather of Joseph’s saddle. The pain has been eclipsed by wonder. She looks into the face of the baby. Her son. Her Lord. His Majesty. At this point in history, the human being who best understands who God is and what He is doing is a teenage girl in a smelly stable. She can’t take her eyes off him. Somehow Mary knows she is holding God. So this is he. She remembers the words of the angel. “His kingdom will never end.”
He looks like anything but a king. His face is prunish and red. His cry, though strong and healthy =, is still the helpless and piercing cry of a baby. And he is absolutely dependent upon Mary for his well-being.
Majesty in the midst of the mundane. Holiness in the filth of sheep manure and sweat. Divinity entering the world on the floor of a stable, through the womb of a teenager and the presence of a carpenter.
She touches the face of the infant- God. How long was your journey!
This baby had overlooked the universe. These rags keeping him warm were the robes of eternity. His golden throne room had been abandoned In favor of a dirty sheep pen. And worshipping angels had been replaced with kind but bewildered shepherds.
Meanwhile, the city hums. The merchants are unaware that God has visited their planet. The innkeeper would never believe that he had just sent God into the cold. And the people would scoff at anyone who told them the messiah lay in the arms of a teenager on the outskirts of their village. They were all too busy to consider the possibility.
Those who missed His Majesty’s arrival that night missed it not because of evil acts or malice; no, they missed it because they simply weren’t looking.
Little has changed in the last two thousand years, has it?
Reference – God came near (chronicles of the Christ)- Max Lucado

Saturday 23 July 2011

i am who i am

I’m not the hair that I wear; I am not the clothes that I have on. I’m not the colour of my skin; I’m not the size of my bank account. It’s not who I know, it’s not who I want to meet. It’s not about the past, future or present.  Looking good is important but its more than what it is. I am full of spirit, life and grace. I am who I am.
People try to define me. Barriers try to bind me. Friends try to refine me. Problems try to stop me, solutions try to solve me. I’m not the riddle in the paper. I’m not the letter from the mailer. I'm definitely not the tale that’s told at night. I'm more like the book that has never been written.
The story of my life is written in simple terms. The pages of my life are not bound by locks or chains. Like an open book, I am all I have to offer. People try to read me but yet they find it so hard. Complicated some call it, a mystery others say. But I wonder what it is that’s so mysterious about a child at play. I wonder what it is that’s so complicated on a straight road that you need directions.
I’m yet to find one that’s just like me, I’m yet to find one that’ll  truly understand me, I’m yet to find one who won’t try to find me. I wait in patience for one that’ll know how to read me. Patiently I wait for I know who I am and I have waited long to find one who would know too. I have found myself, yes, for I am who I am.

Saturday 25 June 2011

MY SUGAR COATED CANDY MAN.

In the sweetest way you crush me
I know I deserve better and I know that you are bad for me
But the very thought of it makes me even want you more.
In the slowest way possible you break me
I feel that I am so strong but in you I find my weakness
It’s for you I crave every time of the day
My sugar coated candy man

Is it in your voice and the things you say?
Is it in your touch and the way you hold me close?
Is it in my head and the way I love you so
Baby I do not know and I hope I find out soon
But for now all that is sure is that you are mine
My sugar coated candy man

The way you smile makes my skin tingle
The sound of your voice is to me a sweet melody
The feel of your skin is enough to demoralize me
What can I do my sugar coated candy man?

I love you so much of that I am sure
But I don’t know if you feel the same
Your words to me say one thing but your actions say another
Yes I love the feel but I am not blind
And certainly not a fool
I want to believe I am the only one but I cannot afford to get you custom-made
How do I get myself off this unholy addiction?
My sugar coated candy man

But really, I rethink, do I want to let you go
I know what you do to me but I hate to fight that craving
To me you are like the forbidden fruit – dangerous but enticing
It seems sensible to let you go
But the decision I know would hurt me so
So maybe I will wait a little longer for you
My sugar coated candy man

So now and again I am back again where I started
Getting crushed in the sweetest way
My heart is like a maze without an exit
No matter how long and far I go I will still always get back to this point
Someday I know it would surely end
Someday the pain will become too much too bear
Then, I guess, I will have no choice
But now when I still have a little strength to hold on
I will stay and enjoy every bit while it lasts
Like the little ones to a candy bar
I will stay true to my sugar coated candy man

Thursday 2 June 2011

Desires of an everyday girl.

Every girl wants a boy who will not just say but do.
Every girl wants a guy who will respect her for who she is and not what she has.
Every girl wants a guy who would treat her like a queen and keep her secrets to himself.
Every girl wants a guy who she could gossip with and wouldn't criticize.
Every girl wants a guy who would go out of his way to make her happy without even a thought.
Every girl wants a guy who she will be comfortable to let loose in front of knowing he will never take advantage of her.
Every girl wants a relationship she can look back on years after no matter what and appreciate not regret.
No matter what you say im still an every day girl

a little something i wrote in high school; dont know what came over me.

I love you BAD, don't know why but you're driving me MAD.
my friends say i'm PSYCHO, I keep hearing it like an ECHO.
the only thing that could make them SHUT is you saying 'I do' yes for SHORT.
 I can't wait to walk you down the AISLE our love would go on like the river NILE.
with you by my SIDE who needs a sound MIND.
you and I no one else MATTERs although we need to take time out to thank our almaMATER.
We would join them as one in the circle of LIFE the band on your finger would have made you my WIFE.

Tuesday 31 May 2011

things i never say

dyou know how i love you, dyou know how i care
dyou know how i long for you or how i want you near
dyou know how i melt at your touch or how i tremble at your sight
well i thought as much, its things i never say

i never thought il'd say this and i still havent changed my mind
i think everyday of how i never want to lose you
and every night i ask myself if u feel the same
but maybe ill never know like things i never say

i might never know how you truly feel
i might never know if your love for me is real
i might never know if you longed for me like i you
cause of things i never say